She Meant More to Me Than I Ever Thought

It has been a rather, sad weekend for us Kadena High School c/o 2007 alumnus. We lost one of our own brightest, beautiful friends, Serena Swanland. God, I sound like I'm typing an article. I don't wanna sound like that, its too painful. She was one of my best friends without me even acknowledging it. I'm sure everybody else had time with her and really connected, but its painful for me because I woulda never thought that this tragic event could happen to somebody like her. So it was Friday morning, I woke up at 9:40am to my phone vibrating. Regina called my phone like 3 times. I called back like 5 minutes later and she told me that Serena passed. I was like wait, Sabrina?! She was like no, Serena...Serena Swanland. I was in disbelief...I couldn't...she said it had been on Facebook since that morning. She asked me if I was gonna be okay, I thought to myself, yeah I'll be okay...knowing I wasn't. I hung up and checked Facebook. I stopped what I was doing and broke down, crying like big tears...like I'm talking about the ones that I've been holding in for some years now. It hurt, it hurt bad and I didn't know that it would. When I was crying I was saying "Oh God...why her? Why do I feel this way? Why am I in pain?'. I had to call Regina back because I was gonna be hurt the whole day...she cheered me up some for the moment. I knew I had to talk to people from my class because I felt obligated to...I know they were hurting, especially the ones who were really close to her....Facebook's been pretty cold for the couple of days, we really can't fathom the whole thing because its so surreal. Some people talked to her the day before she was in the car accident. Its just been crazy, and depressin for the past couple days.

We were on the Panther Prowl together, she was the only other one who was in Journalism III with me. I remember when we were debating who should get Editor-In-Chief until Mrs. Mendoza made there be 4 EICs for different aspects of the paper. Junior year, when she signed my yearbook, I thought it was cool that she remembered the classes we were in together since freshmen year.

I'm not too sure how to end this blog, but continue to pray for us, her friends and family, as I will be doing the same. Thanks Serena, for the years that we had on Okinawa. I'm sure you're watching down on us now.

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#5 Visionary Unfinished Business Spring 09 OW-OW

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It's Time

Well, I only got one thing to say: It is time. I'll see you when I see you, people. [Let's door slam behind me]

Freakin Budget Cuts Please

Yeah...so I was walkin back to my room from the bookstore today. Total of my books was like $369. Added a few stuff to make the total $414.something. That's like 5 books yo, mad heavy with a huge Obama poster. But anyway, I'm walkin back to my room and thinkin to myself. "Alright that's $414 minus the $750 that I put on my SpartanCard. That refund should be about $300, add that to $1500, but subtract the $500. How am I gonna manage all my other costs, like when I wanna buy food at school, knowing that every school purchase is like a bank robbery. What other times am I gonna actually use my card for snacks? Can that $300 last for the whole semester?" The whole thing like made me realize that I need to really put myself on a serious overseer budget. I have no income, I'm a freakin college student on scholarship. I can't live on scholarship forever now. Ya know, a few paying graphics but its not alot. I'm at a full ride with school but until I get myself off financial aid (no that's not a bad thing), I have to pay for school and probably won't have any room for refund checks. I can't depend on a refund check. Now I'm stable, I'm not saying I don't have money because I do. Its just no income flow. I got pretty much 2 years of school left and I'm not too into making money just yet. I'm glad I'm on scholarships and stuff but it can't be like this forever (duh, I'm not gonna be in school forever) Hmm...maybe I just needed that reality check. Last semester, financially was fine...its just that I used like all the money on my SpartanCard, on paraphenalia and of course, food. I can do better, and I'm going to. Let's get it.

Typical

Yeah Happy New Year and all that genre. I'm doing great by the way. Like, more than ever. I'm focused on a lot of stuff in life right now. Relationship wise...definetely single and not a man whore lol. Wish I had more to say but I really can't think of anything else. Stay...good?