It has been a rather, sad weekend for us Kadena High School c/o 2007 alumnus. We lost one of our own brightest, beautiful friends, Serena Swanland. God, I sound like I'm typing an article. I don't wanna sound like that, its too painful. She was one of my best friends without me even acknowledging it. I'm sure everybody else had time with her and really connected, but its painful for me because I woulda never thought that this tragic event could happen to somebody like her. So it was Friday morning, I woke up at 9:40am to my phone vibrating. Regina called my phone like 3 times. I called back like 5 minutes later and she told me that Serena passed. I was like wait, Sabrina?! She was like no, Serena...Serena Swanland. I was in disbelief...I couldn't...she said it had been on Facebook since that morning. She asked me if I was gonna be okay, I thought to myself, yeah I'll be okay...knowing I wasn't. I hung up and checked Facebook. I stopped what I was doing and broke down, crying like big tears...like I'm talking about the ones that I've been holding in for some years now. It hurt, it hurt bad and I didn't know that it would. When I was crying I was saying "Oh God...why her? Why do I feel this way? Why am I in pain?'. I had to call Regina back because I was gonna be hurt the whole day...she cheered me up some for the moment. I knew I had to talk to people from my class because I felt obligated to...I know they were hurting, especially the ones who were really close to her....Facebook's been pretty cold for the couple of days, we really can't fathom the whole thing because its so surreal. Some people talked to her the day before she was in the car accident. Its just been crazy, and depressin for the past couple days.
We were on the Panther Prowl together, she was the only other one who was in Journalism III with me. I remember when we were debating who should get Editor-In-Chief until Mrs. Mendoza made there be 4 EICs for different aspects of the paper. Junior year, when she signed my yearbook, I thought it was cool that she remembered the classes we were in together since freshmen year.
I'm not too sure how to end this blog, but continue to pray for us, her friends and family, as I will be doing the same. Thanks Serena, for the years that we had on Okinawa. I'm sure you're watching down on us now.
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6 comments:
I send out my prayers and condolences to her family, friends and you. It's heart wrenching, seeing how much you cared, so much to even dedicate an entire post to her. I can bet she's happy to know you cared so much, it was mutual I'm sure and just keep your head up... she's in a BETTER place.
thanks for that Jay, definitely appreciate it
You said it beautifully for us all. Thank you, Miss Dail
Serena and i grew up in England together. She was one of my best friends there, I spent more time with her, then any other one of my friends. Its killing me inside...the day of her death, i was moving into my new house, and i saw the bag of Carmel popcorn my mom had made me, and remembered it was her favorite, and remembered how my mom made it every time she came over. We would stay up all night eating it and watching anime and reading manga together. I said to myself when i saw it, that i needed to call her...and decided it could wait until i got settled in...i feel so miserable about it. And i still feel miserable about it everyday since it happened....i wish i would of called, and told her how much i missed her, and thought of her....and its only got more painful it feels like, all the reminders of her everywhere, birthday gifts, picture....it just doesnt ever feel like it will be real...
:( My prayers go out to you, her friends & family.
I periodically google Serena's name... and saw this.
Thank you so much. It's beautiful and I really appreciate your love.
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